Time really flies. It seems as if my grandmother passed away last week. Today, it's her 100th day anniversary and I went with my parents and relatives to 光明山 to pray.
I still remembered I was trying hard to concentrate and memorising the Social Studies notes at my grandmother's funeral. That was pre-prelims, one of the worst days in this year. I had a hard time memorising Globalisation and forced myself to memorise the details, but nothing went into my head. I thought I was going to fail Social Studies during prelims for sure, thankfully I didn't.
Now, it's post-O Level's. I'm slacking like don't know what shit, jobless and lack of determination and confidence to find a job. I'm constantly waiting to the job agency to give me a call of hope, or in msn, where conversation windows of surprise pop up suddenly. Nehpok, fat hope. I NEED A JOB BADLY! (to attend a course D:)
The past posts are all about O Level's and prelims. Now, it's all about complaints of being bored, slack, and especially, being jobless. Well after all, I think it's okay for me not to work this holidays, but the thought of spending my holidays rotting in front of my computer watching kdramas and playing maple just makes me ... FEEL DEAD. I see this kind of lifestyle as no life. During MSP classes I learnt about Gaya Hidup Sihat (Healthy Lifestyle) and the ways to lead a healthy lifestyle. It's so contradicting that I'm actually leading a super unhealthy lifestyle now(it's not that having a job can be called as a super healthy lifestyle).
Lala all I can do now is to wait for the holy phone call from the job agency. ROT ROT ROT!
